Hard Days, Long Nights....

After I get home from school I usually have flags. When I don't however I am at home working out or just thinking about school. I love to come home on thoes stressful days where you just don't wanna think about anything from the day and I just go for a ride on my dirt bike. It feels great to just have me relax and just let my frustration out on the speed of my bike. The truth is that my mom tells me I need to handle things like an adult when what I really want to do is...., NEVER grow up. It seems my attitude so far this year leads me to the fact I am maturing but, right now I want to have fun in high school. Though I can't think of anyway but, to go back to Freshmen year. So I have come to the conclusion that I highly doubt I will ever grow up anymore than I have. I forever talk in class; draw stupid pictures; YEs listen to the Jonas Brothers and the occasional Hannah Montana but, that is how I am being a kid. Singing in the hair brush or imagining my wedding of my dreams or my first kiss. I still have an imagination when it comes to being a super hero and being the most popular in class. What I figure is when you loose your imagination you loose all of your fun all together. I wanna be the funny one who is outgoing instead of shy (working on that). And while some people say it is likley that losers will grow up to be millionares I think...."I won't be a millionare, I am gonna be the fun one...., I am gonna be a soccer player, president or a clown." The truth is when someone says you shouldn't be friends with them because, they are immature I say that makes them a better friend than anyone. Forever I want to laugh with my friends Josh, Abby, Kyle and Zack and ride the bus to school just to think of driving. I wanna still not leave my mom at the store when she wants to me meet her afterwards because, I am scared of getting lost and, I don't like to talk to people outside of my group of friends especially, teachers or store associates without a friend near by. It is not being stuck up, it is just me being me. I don't like to talk to certain people in my school because, I am afraid that they hate me and, when someone I like asks me out than I am scared to answer incase they are playing a joke on me. My advice to you is to stay immature. To do stuff that is stupid now as a teenager so you can enjoy life. Act stupid; Dress silly and my favortie have the stupid spirit I know all you have inside. That is what I do. So though my Days are hard because, of the descsions I have to make and, the hearts I have to break adding my long nights that seem to last forever and a day, I have to say this is the last year I stop maturing...., I forever Immature and...., it feels SOOOO good.

JOSH N. IS FRICKEN AWESOME!!!!
This is for my best friend....
Josh N is my buddy and like a brother. Though Goofy and sometimes acting more immature than I am with his funny faces and noises he can not only get me in trouble in class but, make me laugh on my worst days. His RICHMOND, Armada and St.Clair friends are lucky to have him to hang out with EVERY weekend (except the weekend of the 23rd). My most popular friend (even with my parents) JOSH N is someone you can always count on to make a big deal about being called ugly in a joke as well as to always be the laugh of the room. I am sorry I could not write a whole 3 paragraph blog about him but, I can only do so much and I think my cancer letter kinda makes up for this. So hopefully he reads this other wise I will have wasted quite a bit of time on this blog here. Because of Josh, I get to stay as immature as I am. The Non-stop laughing not only makes my gut hurt but, makes the days pain go away (wow that was DEEP!!!!) So here is to Josh.N. Me and the Richmond peoplez friend. Happy????