Uncomfortable

Ummmm.... I am thinking of what to say. I remembered what I wanted to say but, now I seemed to of forgotten.

Ohhhh OK now I remember. My Choir Teacher was teaching us about insecurity. It was said that we do stupid things we may not realize because, we are not very secure with ourselves. So since I was smart, I put my hair in my face for one of his examples and guess who got called to the front. Than the teacher made my stand one tile square away from a guy and I had to stand up straight and just look at him. It got very uncomfortable very fast. I quickly went back to my seat and my teacher said "See than you think 'does he like me????'" Ever since my puppy died on Easter and Having the feeling I almost died myself I realized I need to do more in life but, what???? I need to be more outgoing. that I did not learn from the the series for unfortunate events I have had but, from a Mentally disordered kid at my school who seemed stalkerish as he kept watching me. Though I did not let that bring me down. Still, My puppy died on Easter; I got in a car accident; I got a partial stalker and since my EX boyfriend and my old best friend that just earned my trust back sent me the nastiest E-mail I have ever gotten. I still did not let it bring me down because, just previously I found out that I have better friends I thought I did and that life is full of surprises like, finding you are hotter than you thought you were. When we thought that life was going to get worse after our loss we gained more than we could have wanted. Or at least I did. Now see it may be uncomfortable to see changes or to look someone in the eye. You may be uncomfortable to live your life different than you thought but, God make things happen for a reason and everything is happening great because, of what happened to me and I am living every day I like have dreamed of ALWAYS!!!! So if you are ever asked to look someone in the eye don't be insecure because, the next day may be your last and everyday you have a chance of dying maybe even for the stupidest reasons so.... Why not live your life????

Hang out with friends and be there for them. Excuse me while I enjoy my day because, I prayed.